Heaven or Hell ?

Being alive and wanting to die and not dying is a torture, because the fundamentals of either enjoying or not enjoying the process of life — the fundamentals of what you refer to as heaven and hell — are just this: If you are in anything willingly, that is your heaven. If you are in anything unwillingly, that is your hell. What is most beautiful can become the ugliest thing if it happens to you unwillingly. What is the most beautiful thing and what is a horror is just a question of willingness and unwillingness.

So the moment you say, “I want to be detached”, you become unwilling for the process of life; you make a hell. No wonder you want to go to heaven. Because people have made a complete hell out of themselves, they want to go to heaven, obviously. I hope they proceed soon because those who have made a hell out of themselves will invariably make a hell out of the world also. If somebody is joyful he will make sure that everything around him is that. If somebody is miserable, he will cause misery to everybody around him.

Yin-Yang says if there is heaven there has to be hell and so is willingness & unwillingness.